I don't want you...
I don't need you...
I don't miss you...
I miss the memories we had before you started in my class in 7th grade.
I miss how easy everything were before you started in my class in 7th grade.
I miss how i used to miss you when we hadn't met for days.
I miss the feeling i had when you was going to start in my class, before you actually came to my class.
I felt like a little child, waiting for santa claus.
But i wasn't waiting for santa claus, i was waiting for my soon to be former best friend.
I've got to be clear, i don't miss you. But i miss the time and the memories that we had.
And i hate that you are so stubborn and that you can't face the fact that you are wrong.
I hate you for saying those things to me.
It was you that decided that we weren't goning to be friends anymore, it was you! So leave me alone!
Just because we're not friends anymore doesn't mean that you have to be stupid.
Just leave me alone. I can handle it now, i can do it.
I just feel so alone, i feel like i just have one friend. I know that it's not true because i have a lot of friends without you.
It's just that i was always with you in my spare time, so it feels weard to be with someone else.
And i'm a afraid that when i can't take it anymore i will go to you and beg you to forgive me.
And i don't want that bacause i don't think that i've done anything wrong.
I'm afraid that when we start school again you're going to be really mean to me.
And i will end up like last time! I will cry all day long and refuse to go in to the classroom.
Because i don't want to see you or hear you.
I know you don't miss me or feel bad for me or anything, but if i see you walking around in school and laughing with them it will break my heart! And i don't want a broken heart.
Why do i always choose to be best friends with thoose who are goning to end up hurting me?
Why do i always have to be the one that is left with a broken heart.?
This is like the first time i have no idea what i am going to do.
Because what ever i do it will be wrong. And i'm goning to end up with a broken heart, one way or another.
So can someone please tell me what to do so i don't have to feel this way!
Beacause i don't know how much longer i can take this!
And i'm afraid that when i can't take it anymore i will do something stupid.


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